Close mine.

Hiatus from me now. 

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time

All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Or wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how

I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised

It got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

You, cracking mine. And, it's already blast off.

Can you take off that shirt?

Don't give your damnation, or I'll turn to a Monster.

Your damnation, really effective. You wouldn't know, this life really Ups and Downs.

I trust on you. You give a lie, instead of beLIEve.

Two times I'm running away from the reality. And I'm hold and still to keep up this path. One word, adore.

You got me? We reach our deal, chew it Sayang.

Ps; An effort. Take it. :)

Pss; Take off that shirt because I want a (new) scent from you.

Deep purple

This feeling, really make me sick. It scratches inside me. Both, didn't do any fault, just need understanding. Try to recover it, somehow, I see a bleak, instead of a beam of light. I need your color. The color that put me in better place.I try to be a mature, and I try. The result, only I know.

Like I'm said, no matter what, important or not, life still goes on. Just play well in this stage. 

Bring your character as an actor/actress as good as you can, and shine your color on this stage. Be confident, Insya-Allah, your plan is working good.

Ps; I try to be the best, and it still smooth.

Hey. Thank sebab bagi aku rasa sakit hati arini. Aku rasa nak bagi @#$%^&* kat makcik aku. Opss! Bakal makcik aku kot? Ataupun, langsung tak jadi makcik aku. It's better! Ayat aku...taknak jahat lagi kan?

Aku bagi chance tempat mana kau nak pergi. And You chose The Mines. Cis! Aku benci tempat tuh. Tapi, aku ikut jek. Sebab pakcik aku nak belanja aku kan ? Dia belanja ke ?

3jam pusing 1Mines tu, 1haram kasut,beg pun dia tak berkenan. Haishh. Eh! Kucing pun pandai wat pilihan, mana satu ikan salmon ngn ikan bilis. Nak survey pun, agak-agak r. 1benda pun,kau tak suka. Camne tu? Baik aku ajak kau g Warta jek. Senang. Semua benda ada kat situ. Padat ! Daymmnn ahh kau.

Oh. Kudos to Solah and his friend, Alif I think his name. Lawak korang best ngan lenggok nasyidnya. Haha..mengujakan! :]

My bulb is Broken.

Pagi-pagi camni,tetiba aku mahu memecahkan mentol aku. Pecah mentol @ Mentol Pecah? Means,ber'emo' sebentar. Korang baca entry ni,jangan pecah mentol sudah. Anggaplah ia satu hiburan yang memang tak kelakar.

Tadi,pegi makan McD ngan Reena. Tetiba je,Reena wat aku 'touching'. Tetiba Reena wat aku terasa kehilangan Dia. Aku pernah postkan entry pasal mamat nih. Tapi,itu waktu dulu. I'm not living for the past. Cit. Nak ber-speaking plak. Kehilangan dia beri satu impak yang besar. Eh! Tak. Impak yang averange. Suam-suam kuku sahaja. (Aku tipooo lagi.) Shooot! Bila Reena cakap about him,baru aku perasan. Dia sudah lama tidak melepak bersama kami. Aku sentiasa mengajak Dia if kami keluar makan. Reaction dia hanya, Tak apelah. Korang pergi lah. What's the matter? Ape salah kami sampaikan kau perlu nak avoid kami.

Kami melepak bersama. Gelak ketawa bersama. Have a dinner together. Tengok match bola bersama. Tapi, Kami tidak selincah dulu lagi. Kalau dulu,pergi dinner bertiga. Sekarang,hanya aku dan Reena. Dulu, Dia begitu bersemangat. Pantang ajak pegi mana,Dia mesti ON. Aku memang tak suka keadaan ini. Aku kenal dia, bukan dalam situasi begini. He's have his own attraction. Dan, kebaikan dia,buat orang di sekeliling Dia selesa.

I'm miss the past with you. I'm miss to tease you like before. I'm miss hang-out with you. I'm miss the way we chat. Kau selalu nak ber-alah ngan aku even some part,aku yang salah. I'm miss the way you drive the car. I'm miss your scent. I'm miss to slow-talk with you. I'm miss to steal your meal. I'm miss your laughter when we are together. I'm miss when we had a talk about our favourite team,Syaitan Merah. I'm miss to-know-all-the-information-that-you-knew. I'm miss when you order a meal,you love to ask a sauce. Kau tak suka sos cili manis. Kau sangup tak makan sos itu. I'm miss the way you set the ball. :|

*sigh* People changed Dania. So,do you. Okay. Kalau kau tak suka lepak bersama,tak apa. Kami paham. Kau pun ada reason sendiri kenapa kau tak lepak bersama. Aku tak boleh nak paksa kau lepak bersama if, hati kau kat tempat lain. Aku tak suka tengok muka 'ketat'. Better,aku jauhkanpahamkan diri kau.

Notasikakimakan: Kalau aku kuali, kau belanga. Atau,kau kuali,aku belanga. Erk? Mat Bunga?

Mood: Tension with this thing. It plays every corner of my mind.

Since today,I didn't know my condition towards him. I'm just feel,what I'm say, what I'm doing...is true without thinking back his feeling. You can say that, I'm a selfish,stubborn because I can't accept the reality is. I'm just need him like before. Hang-out with him with the joke we made and laugh together. Nice! That memory is still alive in my mind even though I'm saying that, I need...NO-NO! I have to forget him. *sigh* It's hard to do this. Please! Give me a miracle! Just once. The reality is cruel. To face off,need high determination. I don't want to be the weakest person about this thing.

I wish...I wish...I want to be the person who doesn't have this feeling. I don't want to feel hurt anymore. I don't want to tear off about this kind of man. I want to shut off this feeling. No more about this stuff.

One thing...my panda said,if we plan what should we do for the future,it doesn't work. Yeah! I'm sustain her word! I should follow my path properly w/o this thing. Just like I'm said before, I'm banned this thing. :]

budus r kau!! f*ck kau!! kau nak aku mncar*t depan-depan kau? kang aku wat...tau terasa. ble ak tnye soklan,jawab r. sensitif ke soalan aku tuh? ak rse..kalau aku tnye laki lain pon,dorang tau nak jawab ape. haishhhhh!!!! kau ni...memalukan kaum lelaki r. adesss....lemah lutut ak berkawan orang yg satu spesies ngn kau.

aku mahu beremo sebentar!

ak kenal diorang from AUG volunteer. diorang sangatlah havoc. i loike. pegi mane2,asyik mahu ikot je walaupun kereta kelisa roomate-ku skang xdelah besar sgt. melepak di mana-mana kedai makan,ditambah perisa gelak ketawa plak..wajib pecah perot. as long as kami happy,kami xkn berganjak dari tempat duduk kami. kerana bagi kami,moment ni..susah nak cari even dalam lubang cacing pon xde.

tapi skang,semua dah berubah. aku tak tahu...kt mne silap. nak jpe korang pon payah, ade je alasan korang bagi. reason,banyak keje. ko igt ak tak byk keje ke? silly do reason engkau. budak uni, klu x byk keje, tuh bukan dak uni la! tak perlu nak mention banyak keje kat kitorang nih. kalau tak nak jpe..say it. ak tahu,ko pon ade geng lain nak layan. ok! go ahead. tapi,ak takkan melayan engkau like waktu kita rapat dulu. sorry to say. ak memang sedih ngan engkau. nak kata ak kolej jauh? ak pun da satu kolej,cuma blok je lain dr ko. kalau dulu,ko sanggup dtg bilik ni mse ak melepak kat kolej ini. ko sanggup mndaki aras 5 tuk melepak bersama. tapi itu dulu. ahhhh! people changed,dania!

kpd org brkenaan,ak rindu waktu kita bersama. kluar makan bersama. waktu gelak ketawa bersama. anything about you,i missed damn much. since ko da kapel ngn bf ko,kau da brubah. you turn 360`. kau bukan yang dulu lagi. dan,komitmen kau terhadap bf,besar. dan jurang antara kami...makin besar. i mind to myself that now,you are not with us sebab kau sudah brpunya.

entah kat mne silapnye this thing. i want to spill out everything in front of your face,so that you know exactly the taste of my word. (ahhh...bermetafora plak kat sini). when people changed,the relationship that we had before is ruin too? haih! baik ak duk lam gua je,kalau mcam ni rupanya ending bila berkawan. baik. I,fullstop here before ak memuntahkan diri dengan ayat-ayat yang tidak manis. for today,people gonna to change themselves.

my word

this is called Dania's groan in the morning.

up&down is what i want I'm think. bukan ape,hidup ini x semua yg sweet-sweet. gula pon ade yang pahit gak. yeke? xpe la..klu semua manis,x best gak. nak juga kurangnye. I'm not perfect and that's what i want to tell you. be the person who can balance and manage my life with the clique, make me more alive and energetic at the same time. I'm not talking about the present. my past is done. and i don't want to remember back. and to that person,thanx because i have you once,not forever. at least,i know well a man from you. good to know you and damn to avoid you.

about 12am,ak mlepak ngn clique volleyball. 1st time melepak bersama. havoc tempat tuh ngn lawak abg MK. adus...pastuh,dibasuh ngn washing machine plak ngn dia. ayat dia tetap melekat,xnak tanggal2 lam kepala otak aku nih. serius shoooot!! memang course yg ak amik ni,memang agak 'tough' and is my willing to take this course,bukan paksaan dari sesiapa. and thanx to my parents too sebab bagi support. hahaha. but mak i je,kurang mnyukai i amik this course. dia ckp...course ni cm laki. then.suh i tukar,jadi cikgu. huuu! i mmg x pndai nk mngajar org,ni kan plak nk mngajar murid2. haishh! entah cmne la rupa i bila jadi cikgu. maybe,student akan panggil i...cik dania atau miss dania atau cikgu dania. u pilih la mne yg u suke ok? :|

this is what im feel right now and im just copy&paste from my FB.

dont take my advantage to manipulate me.hate that moment. and is good to be kind to the others,but at least,it's enough to your capability. to that girl...pls wake up!!!! tolong jangan terlalu bergantung terhadap orang lain. sh*t,you're my friend and im willing to help you. tapi ni dah melampau. dont make me feel uneasy towards u.

when u turn up my mind

minggu ni mmg mnguji tahap kesabaran ak. entah la..lately ak asyik tension ngn spesies yang sama je. malas gak ak nk melayan feeling ni,tapi....bila tetbe je mnde tu dtg,mmg ak nk marah r. ak tau r,maybe salah ak kot pegi pecaya cakap spesies itu. tp da dorang ckp,spontan r...ak pecaya. (adus dania...mmg ko sengal).

ok la. opening cerita dia cmni. jeng..jeng..jeng. hahaha. muzik latar.

entiti#1: kenapa aku sungguh panas terhadap dirinya? KES PERTAMA adalah masa short sem yg lepas. ak penah bagitau dia,ko nk kutuk pon,kutuk je r ak. ak x kisah as long as ko ckp depan ak. tapi kdg2,ak terasa gak r ngn kutukan org kat ak. but most of the time,lantak pi korang r. hidup ak. ko nk suke ke,x suke ke..ak kisah ape. tapi masa tu,mmg ak terasa kot ngn kutukan dia. pas kuar ngn dia,ak trus *down*. serius! mase ak dpt result exam trok pon,ak x down cmtu skali. (prumpaan sahaja). pas kjadian tu,ak trus mncuka ngn dia. haha. tipo jek. ak ok je. just,lam hati je...terasa marah gila. bila da lama da berlalu kjadian itu,ak da makin baik ngn dia. KES KEDUA,this sem ak dapat 1group ngn dia. DAMN! mmg ak trlopong sebentar. tapi,xpe r. myb dia boleh diharap. ku sangka hujan ke petang,tapi hujan di tgh hari. (ni ak google je sbb ak mmg lemah lam BM). mmg dia wat keje lam group ak! keje dia,kuar masok lab. ak agak tensen sbb dia sorang je lelaki melayu lam group ak. tapi ak tahan gak,xnk marah2. esok,ak jmpe dia,ak tnye r dia,napa x wat lab smalam? bole plak ko jawab,meja tu kecik. siot! baik ko xyah datang lab cm2. duk lam bilik...ko wat report len. meja kecik pon,ko boleh jadikan as a reason. silly btol la. ntah r. ak tak penah benci kat orang lain cmni. serius x penah. mmg r ak penah bnci kt org 2,tapi kejap r. ak dpt trima orang tu lagi r. ni x...tgk muka dia pon,ak x sanggup. huh! truk kan ak. xpe r. dulu,dia penah gak tolong ak sbb ak rapat ngn sewaktu dulu. mmg penah rapat,smpai kwn2 ak ckp ak ada affair ngn dia. hahaha. part tu paling kelakar. haih. suke pon x,cmne la bole ak nk love-love ngn mamat tuh. mmg bruntung sapa dapat dia. *sigh* satu je kebaikan dia,dia mmg seorang yang BAIK tapi jangan terlalu dibanggakan sangat kebaikan dia.

entah r. ak mmg x layak untuk meng-judge-kan org. tapi x payah r nk mnipu ak. ak da letih. xnk...ckp je straight. mmg sakit. itu ak x nafikan. lumrah manusia r,sapa dapat mnerima kritikan daripada orang lain. lagi2,ngn ayat2 yg kasar. ak pon cmtu gak. at least,ak tahu apa yg korang fikir tentang ak. dan mana tau,one day, ican cover up my fault. who know,right? just one,be honest,please!

time is running out and i cant rotate it back just because it's my desire! damn.

*ak x suka kepada entiti tersebut. jangan kaitkan aku ngn dia lagi.*

entiti yang mnyakitkan hati

ak x kisah org nk ckp apa pun pasal diri ak. ak poyo ke,ak bodoh ke,ak da ayu ke,bajet pndai..whatever kind of disguise word,ak x amik port pon. korang ckp la pape pon. tapi bila ada org mnipu ak,pantang betul. serius sh*t! mmg entiti itu orang yang paling budus r. terang benderang ak nmpak ko ngn org lain. (ni bkn pasal ak da ade bf. ak mntion awal2.) seorang entiti yang bgitau ak yg dia ada hal.ak pcaya la entiti ini. skali....tup tup! mmg ko ade keje kan? nmpk je ko kt kolej td.aku da r berasap ngn ko.wat keje pon,lepas tgn je. ape guna dia bg group,klu tak bekerja lam kumpulan. ak tahu r,meja tu kecik.org pon ramai. at least,ko tunjukkan sikit r usaha ko tuk bantu kerja2 brkumpulan. bukan kuar masok sesuka hati. alasan entiti itu apabila ak tegur:da ramai org kat tmpt tu. amboi...sedap mulut bapak ko ek? universiti ni bapak ko punya ke? pastu,report main tiru je. seteruk-teruk ak,ak cuba untuk memahami apa yg ak x paham even mnde tu,simple sangat. sebodoh-bodoh aku,ak tahu tahap ak kat mana. ak cuba tuk selesaikan mnde tu.

my mind,shoot !!

1st week da brlalu pergi dan ak hanya mngunjung tiba 2nd week brlabuh di tepi katil ak. (tpi katil? bsr sgt ka ktil ko tuh) byk mnde yg brmain di fikiran ak. serious sh*t. org len duk bz mnambah unit,ak duk relax jek. entah ape yg ak fikirkan. byk sgt das-das peluru lam otak aku. rasa mau mati ngn segala setan-setan yang mengganggu hidup ak skang. *sigh*

ape yg aku mngarut kat atas nih. dania..dania. straight to the point ok? okay! my mind was reset from zero to hundred. and i just to believe to myself that i can do it. NO! i MUST do it because it my dreams. i don't care others call me a jerk or anything stupid,but to me,my mind said so. and i have to fulfill it whether it seems hard to me to grab it. maybe i put so much high expectation to my life,and if not,im a loser! i hate being loser. *dush*

hari ni pegi klas ngn keadaan yg separa x rela sbb pagi ni kat ukm,amatlah best untuk tido. datang la satu msg yang sngaja mnganggu waktu tidoku. haish. ak tgk,trpampang nama JKAS-SAYYID dan mnanya ttg klas dimana. adus...bukak mata pon malas. ye2. ak bangun dr tido dan reply msg dia. okies. ak tgk jam hp aku,mnunjukkan kul 8am. awal lagi,detik hati aku ni. ok la. ak pon baring jap sambil sibok alarmkan hp ak pukol 8.15am. bajet nk g mndi,nk iron baju lak. hoho. sekali tgk jam da kul 8.30am. melompat tuan hamba dr katil untuk mngejar bas. smpai je kat bus-stop,ak melihat pmandangan yg agak luar biasa bg aku. sbb tetbe je bus-stop tuh penuh ngn org berbaju kemeja,berbaju melayu. ak pon pelik r. skali pandang..ak x kenal dorang. 2 kali pandang,mmg sah budak baru. junior kot? haha! sbb ak senior la,ak bajet tahu semua. ak teros masok lam bas dan dorang tgk pelik je kt ak. lantak pi la korang. ak nk g klas. korang xnk g klas sudah. pakcik bas....opss! abang bas pon nk xnk je bawa bas. smpat g brbual kt luar bas. ni...yg duk kat lam bas da panas da ni even air-cond da sedia ada sejukkan badan aku.

then,sesampai jek ak kat fak,ak tgk rofia,coursemate ak,sdg tunggu bas. ak pon pelik ah. lalu,ak brtanya sama dia,rofia! u x pegi klas ke? ngn slumber,die jawab,klas da abes. u lambat dtg klas. org da balik,u baru nk dtg. haish. merah muka ak bile die ckp cmtu. haha. ak say sorry kt die then mnuju ke dlm fak. huih! ak tgk foyer pon da ade junior. pegi kafe pon,ramai junior. haish! pelik gak ak. bese..klu time breakfast,jarang org mkn. sbb aku la pelanggan tetap klu time breakfast. haha. tu yang pelik bg ak. hahaha! ak nk gelak dulu. klu ak igt mnde nih,mst ak trgelak. adus. da 1tahun ak kat ukm. da1tahun aku belajar kat fakulti kejuruteraan & alam bina. ak bole buat ksilapan yg agak memalukan diri sndri. hoho. cm bese la. pegi kafe,mahu makan la. lepas tgk lauk kat kafe,ilang plak selera nk mkn sbb trlalu byk lauk. then,ak suh la si paten nih g amik mkanan die dolu. dan ak g cop tmpat. sesampai jek kt tmpat duduk,ak tgk mknan si paten cm sedap. tringin lak nk mkn tp xtau nk mkn ape. dan si paten tolong pilihkan mkanan tuk ak. NASI LEMAK KEJUT.terbaik!! huih. ak pegi kt abg kafe dan memesan nasi lemah....opss! nasi lemak. lepas dpt nasi lemak,ak hulur r duit rm5 kt die. bajet nk byar kat abg tu. skali abg tu ckp, bayar kat depan. adus!! malu kot muka aku. lalu,ak mnjawab,sori r. saya dak first year. hahaha! abg tu gelak. adus!!! malu sesangat sbb abg tu mg da kenal sgt ngn muka aku nih. klu muka aku jek,order nasi lemak. xpe. first day dtg fak ngn keadaan yg agak serabai. bole dimaafkan. :]

ok. hari first di UKM. agak memenatkan sbb melayan kerenah dak baru. xpe. aku bole train diri aku as akak yang baik.haha! x sangka da besar da aku nih. yg penting...ak menyempatkan diri untuk cuci mata. haih. mata aku da agak kabur sbb da lama x cuci.

toink. toink!

empty

im confused. i've got think that he have to be that way because of his f*******. owh god. why im currently miss him damn much? im not be able to control myself to tell that i miss him eventhough i know my circumstances now. i will talk whatever i want to,and im not smart to deal with my heart too. to be a girlfriend to someone now,it such a good thing,and feel better that you have him on your besides. but,how if you have to be shared with somebody that you knew? how you want to react? how? what im supposed to do? cry? tell my friend my condition now? and to make me happy back,to see me smile back,what they gonna do? i don't want to gain their burden. and enough for what they through with their life. plus,i knew the rules of friend. friend is the one that lend their hands when you in trouble,and i admit it,my friends are wonderful. and im thankful having you in my life. but somehow,im not easy to share about my feeling. to be truth,im loved someone. and enough that im say,you knew him.

to him.

going back to the past,im glad knew you. you are my saviour when im need a help. im happy? once,yes! im happy to you. but now,im not your bitter half. what im feel about you..still the same like first time we met. i remembered,our first vacation,a little bit of awkward,but it seems we enjoyed ourselves perfectly. whatever i ask for,you 100% want to make it real for me. thanks. and one day,you cracked my feeling. im clueless. i have to let go of you. eventhough im so hard to be far away from you,im clear about you. about your feeling. thanks. honest is what im find out from you.

cerita 2

sigh.
im happy now because of you. you,my friends.
you,shining up my life and you are my savior too.
when im in bad condition,im avoid myself from you,sorry..im not the one who tell my problems immediately.
i need the time to breathe and fix my mind back.
maybe,what im done is something worst,but i can't pull it over...because this is me.
yeah! when im back to basic,im little bit of crazy.
and,crave the food is what i love!
and for those,who wouldn't accept myself,just go to hell.
i don't force you to be my friend.
plus,i hate people pretend to like me.
ugh...it hurt me!
and guys,thanx because you always by my side.



:]

sorry

i do,i like him as a friend. but now,time never wait me and it goes directly towards him.

and it knocked down his heart and im realize now.

i hate him!!

termo....im done with u

okies! termo sudah berlalu pergi cm hatiku ini. even im done on my past year....im stuck with it again this morning. i want suck U back,dear.

.........................................................
grrrr!
termo
termo
termo
sudah habis.
im not good in termo
aber,ich bin versuchen nach verstehe auf termo.
[but,im try to understand it!]


...........................................................
motto
KAMI MAMPU MELAKUKANNYA!
is it work to me?
owh.....
kepala ku saket....
carnot cycle,isentropic efficiencies,enthalpy
ideal rankine cycle,ideal vapour-compression cycle.
apa itu?

F***

yeah!! exam mechanic da abes! seriusly...soalan cm past year yg mr.kat bg tuh! tp asal ak x take care mnde yg die ckp? pdhal..da terang lg brsuloh mr.kat ajar kat ak. tp ak lgsong wat xtao.
mengong!! lg satu...x penah ak tido lam exam..bole plak exam pg td ak tido. pdahal byk lagi solan yg ak lom jawab. ngn selamba badak...ak tido 3/4 kali lam dewan exam!! cm syial jek ak rase arini. smalam ak tido awal...preparation 4 exam today. skali cm bangkai lak ak rase. pe bende yg ak melalut td..pon ak xtao. ak tgk cine seblah ak...relax semacam jek. haih! entah cmne r result mechanic ak?

next coming exam.....diz weekend too which is on friday. i've got 2 exam simultaneously on that day. first is thermodynamic--the killer one after electric and mechanic. second is oral for german language. harap german je r....eventhough it is not my current language now!