This is a BLACKMAIL. NOT WHITEMAIL.

It not too late to wish HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you guys. 

Hoping, you guys have your own resolution/fart. Daaah.


Random FREAKINGspeech/resolution/feeling:

So, I've been thinking which role should I take, to be a nobody. (I'm not well to be somebody).

Hard to play a defensive role, instead of to let go everything I listened of.

Less of whine, heading me a great of solution. (Maybe)

Do a lot of working, never give you a best result. Somehow, pick an easy way to you, not to follow others lead.

Frankly speaking, I'm a person who be more whining up about everything (don't misjudge me), but, deep inside, I know your pocket's feeling. Just, I'm being a little mean. I guess.

Recent, I love a vibrant colours. Which, leads me to be a confidence/sexuality person. Woooh.

Maybe it's sound cliche, I have to say it. I NEED A DIET SCHEDULE.  :)

Need to polish my persona, to give this year more and more healthy filthy look. Daaaah.

What I'm doing right now? Mengenang nasib. Phewwww. Apa akan jadi 10 akan datang? Aku da kahwin? Dengan siapa? Dah ada anak? Hebat. Itu pun kalau umur aku panjang. Semua itu Qada'&Qadaar. Berserah je.

Hahaha. Aku tipu je. Mestilah aku tengah menaip skang. Danggg!

I've been grounded, due to my action. Oh. Do you believe it? Because it is so unreasonable for me, which not/yes 21years old. Whatttuppp! So lame. 21, means more stress, wrinkles on face, (hoping more sexy-hunky guy laid around me ). Ohhhh.

I love to be simple. From the way I act, the way I'm dressing, and the way I'm talk. Grrrrr. Maybe, I'm just pretending in front of you, or I just not in the mood or neither. Ohhhh.

2011. One more year left. (I stand up, chuckles, play volleyball, eating, go class, messy in my room, gossipping! Wooooohhh!) Will miss it you,UKM. Boleh ke aku amik ijazah aku dengan muka bangga? Ask yourself lah!

About 3 in the morning, still I can't close my eyes. Dammittt!

New year. What the heck of it? Go out and celebrate to somewhere with someone, chuckles, eating, last and fun, waiting for the fire cracker to go straight up to the sky. And, everybody say, Wooohhh~ Great guys.
(.)

Please be easy to me. For you, I concerned of. 

Pffftttttt. So much I tell you about my fart/feeling above this. Hope you guys chew it, and last, BOMB! throw into a bin. I respect it guys. 



Ps; I save it until now, go get your life. Yes/no, I'm still the same person. Ups&downs, just lead the way and learn moree

Pss; Entry kali ni bole tahan panjang la. Jangan muntah da la.

Your warm embrace,Ma.

I believe on what Allah SWT is planned for me. I take my lead and still seeking for the happiness. And to see you happy with us, it's very grateful to me. 

Yaya tak suka banding-membanding apa yang yaya ada ngan orang lain. Cukup sekadar, Yaya bersyukur. Yaya tahu, Mama memang yang terbaik yang pernah Allah SWT kurniakan. Because I love you, I accept the way you are.  No complaining, Ma.  :)

I'm glad, having you Ma. Your patience, is out of my mind to think of your limit is. 

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I'm sorry if I give you a hard time. Muka tak puas hati, selalu menjawab apa yang mama cakap, selalu malas buat kerja, selalu tak dengar apa yang mama cakap, pesan, but when I'm far away with you, that's all the thing that I'm very missing it. Most important, I miss the moment that you woke me up every morning.  (Leteran tu penting.)

Missing yours; your dish, your voice, your scent, your babbling, your smile, your gossip, your sewing-machine sound, your Hindustan drama, our sweet-quarrel-about-what-channel-we-should-watch. 

Whenever you are so different to others, Ma, I still believe that you are the greatest Ma that I've ever had.

I love you, Ma. I adore with your persona. 

Ps; This post really related to someone. Please noted. 

Blast October.

Having a good bonding, deliver you a beautiful thought. The chemistry around you, will attract each other with the magnet aid. I'm still seeking of the magic of happiness. Currently, is happening. But, the moral, don't satisfy too much with the thing that you wouldn't see the ending is.

Forward

Happy news for all Muslim people out there!

Ramadhan is coming back!!

And, I am a Muslim, is to be glad to welcome-ing a Ramadhan again.

Okay, for this moment, I try to seek the light beyond a fasting month, not only just refrain from lust; eating, drinking, more sleep at afternoon, but to be more close to my creature. Niat sudah pasang, tunggu nak buat je. I am lacking about that and until now, I'm still learning how to be a good Muslim. I am not too perfect. As a person, I have to learn so many thing to adapt to the next chapter of my life. Be bold, or I lose in this game of the world.

Ramadhan is welcomed me, and I should start with this new thing. 'Bermuhasabah' is the word of this semester. No more play hard, study hard. I cut it and make it with this sound, Play less, Study hard-less-hard. :) No extend! Aku ingat pesan orang-orang yang berpengalaman. It's enough for the past 4 semester I laughing without any warning. Sekarang, harus kena malu pada diri sendiri sebab aku bukanlah yang sempurna walaupun pada zahirnya, aku sempurna.

To all my dear, Happy Fasting day and grab this opportunity that comes once in a year. Moreover, don't let this month goes away like a dust because you didn't know either next year you are still alive. Quick, step up forward to become a super-duper person. :)

Just a sneek-a-peek from an 2010 IPC Powerlifting World Championship. Later, I will update about that.

Sigh. Can I fly to Bangkok and laughing with them again? Missing them so much!!

CircleOfLife

3 is already down like the bird fly away. Not with the best feeling, but feel great because *_* I don't know. 1 more is left to me. Of course, I will serve it to You. Too much. Haha.

Btw, I love this picture. BrogaHill is the Mantop place to strength,shear,flexural your mind. Erk? Okay. No more MaterialTechnology stuff anymore. Toughness your mind. Kahkah. Macam konkrit la plak. Jom bina Frame nak?

Let's spread your mind.

Keep smiling. No more cursing. No more headache. Dang!

1more to go and I will hit You Mom. Don't worry mom. Your daughter still remember the way to back home. Never forget lah! I cross my finger. Betul Mama. Hee.

Muka nak malu-malu. Tahan nak gelak lak tu. Alolo~~ Da cantik,ayu,manis. Takyah control sesangat. Hahaha. Lawak. Okay-okay. Sori Mum. Mintak ampun okay?

Ps: Do/Don't is the thing that you always Do everyday.

Burping.

I'M ALLERGIC TO BULLCOWHENCOCKYOURS-TOO-dullSHI(r)T

Last-minute preparation doesn't gives me any good result. Many,hundred, billion, trillion, if I read it, I feel terrible.

Come'on Dania. You can do it! I know.

Ahh! Ape kau tahu? I know my ability. More I push myself, more tak-betul la esok hari. Mereng.

Challenge yourself. Don't give up so early. Hit the bird with trillioin stones.

Oh. Aku nak rebus jek note then, minum air dia. Banyak gak khasiat aku dapat dari aku baling batu kat burung kejadah tu.

Found out more tomorrow.

Sleep on my paper's exam or keluar awal.

Teropong dari jauh. Harap tidur. Dem! Jom layan movie.

I let my own guts down.

when u turn up my mind

minggu ni mmg mnguji tahap kesabaran ak. entah la..lately ak asyik tension ngn spesies yang sama je. malas gak ak nk melayan feeling ni,tapi....bila tetbe je mnde tu dtg,mmg ak nk marah r. ak tau r,maybe salah ak kot pegi pecaya cakap spesies itu. tp da dorang ckp,spontan r...ak pecaya. (adus dania...mmg ko sengal).

ok la. opening cerita dia cmni. jeng..jeng..jeng. hahaha. muzik latar.

entiti#1: kenapa aku sungguh panas terhadap dirinya? KES PERTAMA adalah masa short sem yg lepas. ak penah bagitau dia,ko nk kutuk pon,kutuk je r ak. ak x kisah as long as ko ckp depan ak. tapi kdg2,ak terasa gak r ngn kutukan org kat ak. but most of the time,lantak pi korang r. hidup ak. ko nk suke ke,x suke ke..ak kisah ape. tapi masa tu,mmg ak terasa kot ngn kutukan dia. pas kuar ngn dia,ak trus *down*. serius! mase ak dpt result exam trok pon,ak x down cmtu skali. (prumpaan sahaja). pas kjadian tu,ak trus mncuka ngn dia. haha. tipo jek. ak ok je. just,lam hati je...terasa marah gila. bila da lama da berlalu kjadian itu,ak da makin baik ngn dia. KES KEDUA,this sem ak dapat 1group ngn dia. DAMN! mmg ak trlopong sebentar. tapi,xpe r. myb dia boleh diharap. ku sangka hujan ke petang,tapi hujan di tgh hari. (ni ak google je sbb ak mmg lemah lam BM). mmg dia wat keje lam group ak! keje dia,kuar masok lab. ak agak tensen sbb dia sorang je lelaki melayu lam group ak. tapi ak tahan gak,xnk marah2. esok,ak jmpe dia,ak tnye r dia,napa x wat lab smalam? bole plak ko jawab,meja tu kecik. siot! baik ko xyah datang lab cm2. duk lam bilik...ko wat report len. meja kecik pon,ko boleh jadikan as a reason. silly btol la. ntah r. ak tak penah benci kat orang lain cmni. serius x penah. mmg r ak penah bnci kt org 2,tapi kejap r. ak dpt trima orang tu lagi r. ni x...tgk muka dia pon,ak x sanggup. huh! truk kan ak. xpe r. dulu,dia penah gak tolong ak sbb ak rapat ngn sewaktu dulu. mmg penah rapat,smpai kwn2 ak ckp ak ada affair ngn dia. hahaha. part tu paling kelakar. haih. suke pon x,cmne la bole ak nk love-love ngn mamat tuh. mmg bruntung sapa dapat dia. *sigh* satu je kebaikan dia,dia mmg seorang yang BAIK tapi jangan terlalu dibanggakan sangat kebaikan dia.

entah r. ak mmg x layak untuk meng-judge-kan org. tapi x payah r nk mnipu ak. ak da letih. xnk...ckp je straight. mmg sakit. itu ak x nafikan. lumrah manusia r,sapa dapat mnerima kritikan daripada orang lain. lagi2,ngn ayat2 yg kasar. ak pon cmtu gak. at least,ak tahu apa yg korang fikir tentang ak. dan mana tau,one day, ican cover up my fault. who know,right? just one,be honest,please!

ubat pencegahan kecuaian

aku bukan seorang yg kuat. pls! jgn seksa aku lagi. aku x tahan. leave me alone! kenapa ko datang kat aku skang? aku x perlukan ko. ko sengaja mnguji aku. sigh! i never have this head.ache. sakit sangat!! is it because...i be a zombie for a few days? hmm...if i talk to my mom,maybe aku yg kene marah sebab jadik burung hantu. hehe...sorry mom..i wouldn't listen to your advice. i can't study on the evening. that time..makes me more sleepy and sleepy! :] 

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3paper mninggalkan aku. just left 3 paper more. dush! math:vector calculus is waiting me out there. i wanna give 150% for you. i want to focus on you. only you now in my head. kenape ye..tiap kali wat math,mesti ade kesilapan. a major one:CARELESS! nmpak sgt aku ni seorang yg kelam-kabut. terbuktikan. entah la...aku cuba tuk kurangkan kesilapan itu,tapi..die tetap muncul. aku xtau nk kurangkan macam mana lagi. tiap kali wat tuto,past year,exam ke..mesti ade! x penah x ade. huh! kalau ade ubat pencegahan kecuaian...aku la orang yg pertama nk beli. i don't know how to prevent it anymore. ok. vector calculus. aku hanya brgantung kat ko jek. 3 paper da hancus.terbakar.pekat.likat..aku xnk ia terjadi pada ko. 

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lagi 1minggu..ko nk balik. im not miss you..but in this case,i want to meet you. a lot of story i want to tell to you eventhough you are not interested into it. hahaha! ko suke ke x,aku cite gak. (terbayang ekspresi muka ko...mimik muka yg straight jek). 

my condition: head.ache again. 

apabila otakku berminat terhadap.............

aku mahu jadik cm logic gate..senang jek. pastuh ade truth table. hidop lagik senang. untok short-cut,wat r K-map.  SR flip-flop pon bagos gak. lagik bagos...D flip-flop. otak cakap makan...aku pon bukak mulut,tandanya aku dah brsedia untok makan. baru aku tao..power pon ade banyak jenis. apparent power mmbawa aku ke alam maya sebab tuh die ade j. real power pulak...mmg betol-betol 'real'! haih!! transformer dapat mngubah voltan hidopku sama ada turun ke naik. diode pulak...membenarkan aku berjalan ke hadapan. xde reverse...melainkan itu adalah full-wave rectifier. aku telah menambah kosa kata baru..bak kata cik mun. register bukan semestinya pendaftaran. dan accumulator bukan pengumpul seperti yg aku sangka. owh...baru aku tao. 

conclusion is: aku maken brminat trhadap kursus ini eventhough it is just 'minor' course :]

dikala ku kebosanan

aku bukan robot..

tuk mengingati semua.

aku coba tuk menjadi 'kuat'

tapi aku tak berdaya

tak berdaya menahan setiap godaan 

i love to be a girl

because i can play,play and play all the time.

when im grew up..

nothing more i can play.

my action will effect me soon

hate to be a woman.

but...when im see my mother,

grow me up,teaches me what's right and wrong..

i felt guilty to myself.

it's unfair if im kids forever!

ye..

dunia semakin kecik

makin banyak masalah yang ditanggung oleh dunia

siapa yang melakukannya?

kita-MANUSIA!

yang mengejar kejayaan tanpa melihat kesan pada akan datang.

yang taksub kepada keduniaan tanpa sedar dunia makin rosak

me........

i can't to be a man

because i was born as a girl

nothing can change me

even once i thought to myself..

i want to be a boy

because i comforts with boys

no idea-why?

is it me that he's been thinking of???

:]

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oral tuk german...

sudah habes.

berlalu pergi ngn senyuman,gelak tawa

kerana ia sunggoh mnyeronokkan!

termo....im done with u

okies! termo sudah berlalu pergi cm hatiku ini. even im done on my past year....im stuck with it again this morning. i want suck U back,dear.

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grrrr!
termo
termo
termo
sudah habis.
im not good in termo
aber,ich bin versuchen nach verstehe auf termo.
[but,im try to understand it!]


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motto
KAMI MAMPU MELAKUKANNYA!
is it work to me?
owh.....
kepala ku saket....
carnot cycle,isentropic efficiencies,enthalpy
ideal rankine cycle,ideal vapour-compression cycle.
apa itu?

danke schon!

maybe im not lucky today...
so...ak membawa diri aku pegi beronggeng ke alamanda
eventhough i feel so-so-so-so guilty to myself because im enjoy....not study for upcoming exam.
but....with them,i feel so comfort and they understand my situation.
from ground floor to 1st floor and eventually to 2nd floor.
ak merasa sgt puas pusing 1 alamanda...even no sale right now.
mmg ak rase down sangat...
sebab itu...ak mengambil langkah yg amat drastik tuk diri ak.
and...our last activity: watch horror movie!! -COMING SOON-
me comment: cite 2 best tp xde ending! hahaahaha!

so now....
time to rest my mind!
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......

F***

yeah!! exam mechanic da abes! seriusly...soalan cm past year yg mr.kat bg tuh! tp asal ak x take care mnde yg die ckp? pdhal..da terang lg brsuloh mr.kat ajar kat ak. tp ak lgsong wat xtao.
mengong!! lg satu...x penah ak tido lam exam..bole plak exam pg td ak tido. pdahal byk lagi solan yg ak lom jawab. ngn selamba badak...ak tido 3/4 kali lam dewan exam!! cm syial jek ak rase arini. smalam ak tido awal...preparation 4 exam today. skali cm bangkai lak ak rase. pe bende yg ak melalut td..pon ak xtao. ak tgk cine seblah ak...relax semacam jek. haih! entah cmne r result mechanic ak?

next coming exam.....diz weekend too which is on friday. i've got 2 exam simultaneously on that day. first is thermodynamic--the killer one after electric and mechanic. second is oral for german language. harap german je r....eventhough it is not my current language now!

did my words kill your feeling?

here: im apologize
im not a good girl..
but im try to be a good one..
im try to make you satisfied for what i've done..
whether when you happy,sad,excited,anxious
im not good to console your heart..
at least im try to see you smile..
when im speak seriously..
im meant it!
to you...
i will give everything i can..
i want to see your smile,laugh everyday
not your tears..
you are kind of my sisters here.
what should i do/don't...
you show me..
thank guys...
you made up my life..

everyday is the same..nothing less and nothing more.

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1. bangon tido----tu pon trpakse bangon!


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2. pegi fak----study group with my clans!


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3. brgurao senda----mesti ade bkoz tu 'pemangkin' ak tuk lebih kuat!


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4. take a nap at evening----must-must do!


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5. on9----i think,it 'harus' not 'wajib'!


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6. dinner on 10 o'clock-----klu x mkn...tgh malam lapar gik!


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7. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

who? when? where? how? which? why? what?

some people know who they are..
tapi ak xtao sapa ak..

some people know what they do..
tapi ak xtao ape yg ak wat..

some people know what they want..
tapi ak xtao ape yg ak nak..

some people know how to fix their mind..
tapi ak xtao cmne nk betolkan keadaan..

some people know why they are here..
tapi ak xtao kenapa ak kat sini..

some people know which one is the best for them..
tapi ak xtao mane satu yang bagos tuk ak..

some people know where they want to go..
tapi ak xtao kemana arah tuju ak..

some people know when they want to go..
tapi ak xtao bila ak nk pegi...

what i know about myself are wake up at after-noon,eat....eat and eat again,and sleep back!

mr.kat!!!

agak malu r arini....
bole ak menyanyi kuat2...pastuh MR.KAT lalu sebelah ak.
gilo!
malo ak...
mr.kat senyom jek!

huh!
korang x gtao MR.KAT lalu....
huhuhu

kisah semalam

semalam a.k.a 25mac 2008...ak rse cm syial jek!

part 1 : mse nk mnunggu driver ak dtg -pakcik bas-..ngn selambe dan xtao malu,ak bole telelap kat bus stop. huh!! 3 bas ak telepas pg td. mmg cm syial jek!

part 2 : yg nih ak suke. hahaha...ak mmg suke kat die nih.kat kafe...ak mmndang klibat dirinya dan srta mrta die senyum kpd diriku. angau ak skejap! owh...kamo....kalao la kamo mnjdi milikku! heeeee.............

part 3 : yg nih....hampeh!! ble ktorang tau yg trmo ade kuiz,cepat-cepat ktorang masok dk2 dan mncrik lokasi yg strategik untok plan ktorang.misi kami---MENIRU--kami nih dgn yakin bhwa chpter yg kuar adalah chptr 5 and 6,so tnpa mmbuang masa...kami mmbca tuto yg lepas dan brharap dpt mnjwb kuiz ngn baik. itu harapan kami smua. tapi...apakan daya,keyakinan kami mati disitu saje bila mndpt krtas kuiz.huh! syial...! solan yg kami dpt adalah dr chpter 4!!!!!

reaksi aku~~trlopong sjenak! haip! walaopon ak lupa-lupa igt ttg chpter,ak wat-wat tau jek. minit2 trakher-ak tiru jek org dpn ak. xkn nk anta kosong kot! keadaan kami after jawab kuiz yg.......

freestyle from norie: tension

sayed malu,faten hepi

citot ngn nadia--korang cm hepi jek

keadaan aku:perhatikan dia. :]

part 4 : adakah aku seorang yg pemarah? atau aku mementingkan diri sndri? knape susah sgt org nk paham ape yg aku cuba mksudkn? ntah la....ak xtao r org nk judge cmne diri aku. yg pnting aku da ckp..dan stiap prbuatan,x kira btul atau salah...mesti ada ALASAN walaopon die tao yg die salah. ok...laki mmg ego yerk?

hari ni..mcm2 perasaan ak ade. suka,sedih,marah,geram....dan aku suka sume perasaan nih. bkoz it makes me more stronger!