i want to be a doctor,because i can help for those who needs my help.
maybe,i can be an architecture,because i can design the building for people out there so that,my design may complete their life.
or,i can be a good housewife for my future husband.

however,i chose my own path and i believe to myself that i can do it. not a doctor,an architecture,or a housewife. i want to be an ןnɟʍɐ`ןɐuoıʇıpuoɔun engineer because its my desire to construct something safe to people.
ughhh!! no more grumble after this.

sedih

fine! she's not to perfect to get what you wanted. dia da wat sehabis baik. semampu yang dia boleh. dia da bersengkang mata sampai suboh tuk dapat yang terbaik. dia da baca dan itu yg dia paham. ape lagi yg x cukup. dia x salahkan sesiapa. dia tahu,salah dia sebab tak fokus lam klas. memang dia x puas hati ngn ape yg dia dapat. and thanx,for those who help her to gain her knowledge.

1

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

satu hari,ak terjaga dari tidur,dan aku terus menggapai hp ak yg,of course hp ak ade kat sebelah aku.hehe...ak tgk jam mnunjukkan pukul 7.50am,ak mahu bangun dari katil tapi mata ni...x reti nk bukak. so,ak sambung la tido aku sampai la aku terasa rambut ak cm ade org tarik. aku buka mata...aku tekejut! org tu...hisap puting ngn kain lampinnya,sedang mengusap-usap pipinya yang gebu. rupa-rupanya,itu adik lelaki aku,izzat. bila aku bukak mata,aku tengok dia senyum sambil tarik rambut aku. aghhh! sakit disitu. mama selalu guna taktik ni tuk kejutkan aku bangun dari tido. sengaja je,dia buka luas2 pintu bilik aku,supaya senang adik ak nk masuk buat kacau. hish! sebab dia tau,klu adik lelaki aku kejutkan...aku akan bangun terus. klu mama kejutkan,aku hanya cakap "ye,yaya bangun". after dia kuar,aku terus bangun dan kunci pintu bilik aku! hahaha

after bangun dari tido,aku menuju ke ruang tamu. aku on tv,then aku baring depan tv.motif aku:supaya mama igt aku tgk tv bukan tido balik kat ruang tamu. bijak kan? hehe..tapi kacau r. mama bising. kat ruang tamu rumah aku,ade sliding door,mama buka pintu tu luas2. huh! lam hati aku membara je sebab kacau aku tgh tido. ak terasa kulit aku panas. patut la...matahari betul2 depan aku. cit! "yela2! yaya bangun ni",jawab aku kat mama ngn nada separuh tak puas hati. mama just senyum je. aku bangun,terus mngadap tv eventhough i knew,pagi2 xde cite ak. saje je nk bagi mama membebel. then,perut aku wat concert lak sebab mama baru je habis masak mee goreng favourite aku. hehe...aku pegi basuh muka,gosok gigi,and makan!!! part yg paling aku suka. :]

aku makan sambil tgk cite kartun kesukaan adik2 aku. huh! tensen ade gak. tapi xpe la. sekali-sekala je aku layan cite kartun ni. tetiba jek,mama menjerit dari dapur. ak terus melompat dari sofa then pegi jenguk mama...to find out what happen. ok! mama da wat list,suh aku kemas rumah.mama suruh aku sapu rumah,basuh baju,lipat baju etc. ngan muka selamba sambil letak pinggan kat dalam sink,aku jawab,"malas r ma.esok bole x?" haha! mama wat muka dragon comel yg tgh marah. telinga dia kuar asap yg banyak. ak da tau da ayat die tuh. ak da bole hafal da.

ko ni...pompuan ke laki? klu laki..bole la mama terima alasan malas. ni x...da r pompuan. malas lak 2 nk wat keje umah. ape nk jadi ngn ko nih? tolong mama kat dapur...malas juga. tolong mama wat keje...ade je alasan ko. cmne ko nk kawen nnt? siapa nk layan laki ko? xkn mama yg da tua nk masakkan tuk laki ko. ko ni....ape nk jadi? klu bab keluar pegi jalan,ko cepat je ek? pantang ade org ajak..ko on je. pastu tinggal mama sorang2 kat umah.

ak menjawab,"ma..klu yaya kawen,yaya nk kawen ngn org kaya. bole upah orang gaji. pastu,orang gaji tu pulak,kene la pandai masak. yaya tolong makan je ngn laki yaya nnt." hehe..senyum aku ngn senyuman kambing. mama da mula pandang aku ngn pandangan yg mnakutkan. huhu..sori ma. anak mama nih..mmg malas r nk turun ke dapur. mama kan tau hakikat sebenar. jgn la marah. nnt..kalau yaya nak kawen,yaya make sure yaya akan belajar masak ngn mama. serious. lol! at least,yaya da pandai masak kek kan....even kena tgk resepi. lala...im still learning on how to bake a good cake.

hai..kenapa la aku begitu sinonim ngn perkataan malas. semua mnde ak malas nk buat. xtau la cmne nk reduce prangai ni. opah ckp,jgn selalu ucap perkataan cm,malas,xde duit,sebab nnt jadi betol! yeke? tp mmg betol pon,selalu aku ckp malas,smpai skang,assignment aku belom siap. 2 la asyik tangguh jek. hoho. tapi aku suke wat mnde ni.

makan.tidur.jalan-jalan.shopping.cuci mata.

OMG!

yuna will be back for her album.

and now,she is recoding for her album,not an EP anymore!

im feel excited!

owh....can't wait for her album.

happy

this song is inspired me just now. and thanked to amalia because let me know this song when im depressed.:]
past is done and the future is what you must worry about. like amalia said,life is like a roller coaster.sometimes we are in the top,and somehow...we are down. and im afraid to going through the truth eventhough im know the answer of my question.and when im talked to you,i felt free. my heart is empty.im just pick randomly my choice,and i've got you! your advice just now,made me realise that whether im in trouble,my friend always have their time to me. sigh.

empty

im confused. i've got think that he have to be that way because of his f*******. owh god. why im currently miss him damn much? im not be able to control myself to tell that i miss him eventhough i know my circumstances now. i will talk whatever i want to,and im not smart to deal with my heart too. to be a girlfriend to someone now,it such a good thing,and feel better that you have him on your besides. but,how if you have to be shared with somebody that you knew? how you want to react? how? what im supposed to do? cry? tell my friend my condition now? and to make me happy back,to see me smile back,what they gonna do? i don't want to gain their burden. and enough for what they through with their life. plus,i knew the rules of friend. friend is the one that lend their hands when you in trouble,and i admit it,my friends are wonderful. and im thankful having you in my life. but somehow,im not easy to share about my feeling. to be truth,im loved someone. and enough that im say,you knew him.

to him.

going back to the past,im glad knew you. you are my saviour when im need a help. im happy? once,yes! im happy to you. but now,im not your bitter half. what im feel about you..still the same like first time we met. i remembered,our first vacation,a little bit of awkward,but it seems we enjoyed ourselves perfectly. whatever i ask for,you 100% want to make it real for me. thanks. and one day,you cracked my feeling. im clueless. i have to let go of you. eventhough im so hard to be far away from you,im clear about you. about your feeling. thanks. honest is what im find out from you.

akak besar

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AKAK BESAR!

celebrate birthday akak besar terlalu awal kan? banyak sebab kenapa kami celebrate awal. and thanx la..kami dapat main kejar-kejar ngan birthday girl. haha! paling lawak..akak besar cam patung ape dah! ngn kene siram air la satu bakldi,satu badan baling tepong ngan telor ayam..hehe...sorry akak besar!

opss! adik kecik terlupa nak belikan present tuk akak besar. ingat nak beli buku warna ngan sticker kat pasar malam semalam. yela...umur da 20tahun. ala...kantoi! da tua rupanya.

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cerita 2

sigh.
im happy now because of you. you,my friends.
you,shining up my life and you are my savior too.
when im in bad condition,im avoid myself from you,sorry..im not the one who tell my problems immediately.
i need the time to breathe and fix my mind back.
maybe,what im done is something worst,but i can't pull it over...because this is me.
yeah! when im back to basic,im little bit of crazy.
and,crave the food is what i love!
and for those,who wouldn't accept myself,just go to hell.
i don't force you to be my friend.
plus,i hate people pretend to like me.
ugh...it hurt me!
and guys,thanx because you always by my side.



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nur shazana

she's like my sister here. every single i've done,i must tell her. i don't know why,or we have chemisty? aku kenal ngn dia pun secara kebetulan. me,selected on AUG's volunteer in beach volleyball and so her. for first time i met her,i felt something about her and i've story everything about me and she listened up. from there,we close and close until now. then,the way she speak up,i thought she is the elder one of the family,unfortunately i wrong! huh...she is the younger one.

she and i..maybe have similarity that made me comfortable around her. we shared the same of genre music,maybe a little bit of the way we dress up, or the way we thinking of. from her,i know what is life too. she taught me everything and im thanked to her. yeah! suke die sebab die sekepala ngn aku. shaz! bile nk g gig yuna? :]

entry ni..aku wat pon sebab da lama aku x jumpa die. first,short sem ni,die g fieldwork kat area pantai timur. serious,she's so busy and no time to meet me. until yesterday,barulah dia msg ak...teman die makan. ok..aku pon setuju r. yang bangang..aku pegi tido. adus...sori shaz. mengantuk la. terus aku basuh muka,pastuh jumpa die kat surau. at least,dapat jumpa dia kejap,dari x jumpa langsung.

sorry

i do,i like him as a friend. but now,time never wait me and it goes directly towards him.

and it knocked down his heart and im realize now.

i hate him!!